I had no intentions of following through.
I convinced myself that breaking my plans wasn't the end of the world.
I slogged through the have-to's, grudgingly doing only the things that would create more hassle for me if they weren't done.
I kept breathing, although shallow, kept debating with myself about what I should be doing.
I can be quite nasty with myself, so to quiet the bickering I did one teensy eensy little thing that required almost no effort but that didn't have to be done.
Surprisingly, I felt a bit better.
So I did one more ever-so-slight tweak of my plans, took one deep breath amidst the shallow ones.
Each time, I snuck up on myself.
My spirit kept giggling like a child anxiously awaiting to be found in a game of hide-and-seek.
And when the game was done, I discovered I had won.
Amidst all of the complaining and over-thinking and fatigue and groaning....
I found the strength to just move.
What will you find the strength to do today??
(I hope that amidst your journeys you take a moment to visit my sister's new blog, "Kaizen"! She's a lovely mommy starting to sing with her own beautiful voice ... I know if she finds half the love I have through blogging her voice will only get stronger.)